Thanksgiving feast

So today was the long awaited Thanksgiving feast we have been practicing so hard for.Every morning going over our 5 songs,making our costumes,stopping at Super Walmart at 5am buying 15 pumpkin pies, preparing to entertain and feed 150 parents! Oh how I love being a teacher! BUT the best part is that I get the up close and personal info on my kids everyday...

Here is Bruno or shall I say, Brave Buffalo!

Brave Buffalo all into the hand movements to the songs-He is sooo our entertainer of the family


Displaying his Indian bead necklace

Here I am in my glory! Not Grace but Mrs.Boyens and for today,Princess red lips! I think I enjoy dressing up more than the kids do.
Bobby,the proud father and husband.I told him I was dressing like Pocahontas and when he saw me,he asked if he could Poke me in my Hontas!!!hahahaha
Me as the proud Mommy and crazy dressed up teacher!

To catch you up to date

Well,it has been awhile since I posted an upbeat,family fun and photo filled blog ..So,here you go,Sept-Oct photos!


Bruno on his new bike from Grandma!
Look who's 5!! Bruno blowing out his candles at his Super Hero Birthday party!
A smile with Chuckee
Me,the kids and Chuck
Avery was not a fan of the rides once they started moving
Happy baby with Barney(ride not moving)
Daddy and Avery at hunsader farms pumpkin patch

Look! it's long enough for pig tails...who cares if they look like little antenna?
Us at this awesome restaurant Bobby found online,we were the only people there!
Downtown Harbor Island
Avery in her awesome pumpkin dress
Bruno and Avery at Zoo Boo
The big cheese!
My new bling! I like to call it..."The Vanessa Bryant treatment"
Us again... at the Tradewinds Resort for a little romantic getaway.Bobby gave me my new ring here.It was under the covers in our bed,covered with red rose petals!!
Blackmail picture for Bruno on "Many colors day"
Mommy and Bruno on the same day!
My first hockey game fight!
At the game
10 year SHS reunion!
Cold enough for new jackets,a fire and Hot cocoa!
Pumpkin carving outside by the fire!

It has been a long,tough,tear filled 3 months BUT in the end I have faith and my family and that's all that matters to me!

overwhelming sadness

Question? is it really worth the tears if no one sees you cry? Everyone is sleeping and here I sit crying. No one to witness the genuine heart ache I feel. Not that I want my kids to see me cry.I have worn my super mom cape many days, putting my emotions on the back burner,throwing on my happy face and making sure that they don't see me suffering.I thank God for blessing me with 3 demanding children to keep my mind occupied all day. But when the house is silent and I am left alone with my thoughts,I start to slowly deteriorate.The pain is physically exhausting yet my mind can't sleep.

Maybe the puffy eyes and the mound of snot filled tissues will give it away in the morning but I want to be validated now.So...I blog! I need to vent,get it out,talk,type,write something! I can't just sit here and cry alone.I have cried alone for the last 3 months. I have never been the type to hide my emotions. I am the girl who cry's during commercials not Mrs.Bad ass,hard core pillar of strength that I have taken on the role of.I know all the right things to do..lean on God,pray,call a friend,talk to Bobby to get it out but I don't want to! I don't want to hear "it will be OK",I don't want to hear"I am sorry", I don't want to hear how strong I am. I just want to cry and have my tears and my pain seen.