Question? is it really worth the tears if no one sees you cry? Everyone is sleeping and here I sit crying. No one to witness the genuine heart ache I feel. Not that I want my kids to see me cry.I have worn my super mom cape many days, putting my emotions on the back burner,throwing on my happy face and making sure that they don't see me suffering.I thank God for blessing me with 3 demanding children to keep my mind occupied all day. But when the house is silent and I am left alone with my thoughts,I start to slowly deteriorate.The pain is physically exhausting yet my mind can't sleep.
Maybe the puffy eyes and the mound of snot filled tissues will give it away in the morning but I want to be validated now.So...I blog! I need to vent,get it out,talk,type,write something! I can't just sit here and cry alone.I have cried alone for the last 3 months. I have never been the type to hide my emotions. I am the girl who cry's during commercials not Mrs.Bad ass,hard core pillar of strength that I have taken on the role of.I know all the right things to do..lean on God,pray,call a friend,talk to Bobby to get it out but I don't want to! I don't want to hear "it will be OK",I don't want to hear"I am sorry", I don't want to hear how strong I am. I just want to cry and have my tears and my pain seen.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
The most beautiful girl in the world
OK,I have made several posts about how cute/pretty Avery is over the course of the past 14 months but seriously...She is just stunningly beautiful. I am just so thankful that God blessed me with a daughter and such a beautiful one.
Soprano's style
So we had family pictures taken Sunday evening. All I have to say is that I LOVE THIS PICTURE! This is sooo going to be blown up and hung in my house! It started off as something silly but ended up as such an awesome shot! So us!!! There are many more that I posted up on my myspace if you are interested in checking them out! Thank you Brentwood Photography!
Monday, September 15, 2008
Monday, September 1, 2008
True Love
Friday night Bobby and I had our "date" night. Check out what we did!!!
Here I am with "Tattoo Jack"
Let the pain begin
Who am I to complain?Look at his head! ouuch!!
Me pretending it hurt to make Bobby feel better about almost hurling during his!
Kisses~!!!
And the finished product!
I love it! It sums up many things for me. I wanted to get something that involved I Corinthians 13 but couldn't get the creative juices flowing. I almost "punk'd" out and didn't get one.Then Bobby found this one.Like I said the tattoo speaks for itself.
Bobby also got a tat but I will upload those pics and type that story later...it's a funny one!
Here I am with "Tattoo Jack"
Let the pain begin
Who am I to complain?Look at his head! ouuch!!
Me pretending it hurt to make Bobby feel better about almost hurling during his!
Kisses~!!!
And the finished product!
I love it! It sums up many things for me. I wanted to get something that involved I Corinthians 13 but couldn't get the creative juices flowing. I almost "punk'd" out and didn't get one.Then Bobby found this one.Like I said the tattoo speaks for itself.Bobby also got a tat but I will upload those pics and type that story later...it's a funny one!
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